Problem with PTPTN

Okay, let me get this straight.

After the PTPTN approved your requests on getting the loan, they will give you those loans for each semester (differ for certain people). And if you failed to get 2.00 or more for your GPA, they will stop the loan for a while till you get a good pointer.

If you get bad result and still get the money, they will ask for that money back...

Wait...

WTF, PTPTN? Is there something wrong with your management?

Failed Future

Yup. I failed to realize that I won't get any money from PTPTN this semester. Why can't I differentiate GPA & CGPA?

So, what now?

Since I'm pretty sure I can't change my course since UiTM is a huge racist asshole, the only options left are either stay learn without any money or find somewhere else to study.

It seems I have no future no intention to continue my life. I have been in the state of depression for years...