My Life So Far

Right now I am a student of Universiti Teknologi MARA/MARA University of Technology also known as UiTM in first semester. I now studied in Information Management. And that do stray away from my path of becoming a film director. Oh well, gotta gather some money to buy a recorder, then you can start your project...


I always wanted to create my own videos and post it on Youtube, and that's because I have a lot of ideas and I pretty much wanted to be like those Youtube celebrities. You know, Ryan Higa, Shane Dawson, Davedays, and many more.

I have a medium taste of comedy. I do love Japanese puns (seeing how clever they twist some pronunciation to make it confusing). I also loves dirty jokes. But, the problem is that I myself doesn't know how to make a joke. Sometimes I just spill it out spontaneously and people do think it is funny. But sometimes it doesn't.


And right now I hate my family (like some normal teenagers would do). But most of it because they, before, never actually spend their time with me. And with no warning they suddenly shoving their nose toward me. And when I did something wrong (or when no one to be blame for certain things), they always shout at me and said, "I never thought you that stuff!"


Okay, first if all, you didn't teach me anything. I learned most of the thing from outside. And everyone knows how dangerous the outside world is. And second, you didn't even care about me in the first place!


Okay, fine, just like some boys, I watched porn. And disgusted with it. It's fake and it is not interesting at all. Why do men loves porn anyway? With those made up moans and some other weird s**t, it is not appealing at all. I rather watch my favorite actresses in bikini, much more turn on.


And I never have a girlfriend. Never wanted to. And I am not attracted enough to have one. And also because I'm a nice guy. I mean, why did girls love going out with bad boys (I am complaining). What makes them so appealing? Is it their handsome faces? Is it because they know how to dress well? Is it because they know how to speak in public? Is it because they honestly talked to you guys? And few months later (the usual time gap) you will enter your room, crying for how jerk he is. Which make no sense because they are acting jerkass in the FIRST PLACE! Love is blind but YOU GUYS NOT!


And why I don't want a girlfriend? Because I don't want to hurt their feelings. If I love you, that's mean I have to do anything to make them feel happy, even if I have to break up with them so they could find a better men. And that will most likely happen since I will be (am) seeing myself as a worthless human.


Back to my life, I used to spend my time writing either my own romantic novel or my fanfictions. My fanfictions are always action adventure fictions.


My novels I am completing right now is called Forum Ai Through Uchuu. I combined the title with Japanese because the heroine is a Japanese. Ai means love and uchuu means space. Yes, it's a bit sci-fi genre, because I am totally fail in geography. So, by making my own fictional world, I can put any name for any places without people condemning me for not doing a research. Owh, come on! I have life, okay?


What should I put now? Owh, what am I doing right now? In a holiday at my parents' home. Why did I say parents' home? Because one day I am going to leave this place forever.
MUAHAHAHAHA!